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~The pain won't stop!~ Thursday, Oct. 03, 2002 - 5:35 PM In 10 min Jays plane takes off in Calgary, heading towards Gatwick. Once she takes off, she will slowly fade away. I'm a little ok right now because I can feel her. Although I have been feeling her cry, she is still there. When she starts to cross the atlantic in a few hours is when it gets really hard for me. The feel of her slowly fades away, and then I just pick up bits and pieces from her. That is hell for me. I seem to be able to somewhat hold it together as long as I can feel her. As she drifts away the emptiness creeps in, and I get cold and almost uncaring, and unfeeling. I need my baby byrd so that I can survive in this hell that is my life. What if I get sick? then what? Kristian missed alot of school because of me last year. I was so sick I couldn't get out of bed. Who will look after me? Who will look after the boy? How will I get through it? It seems that the longer we are together, the more we need eachother. We never get sick of eachother. We love eachother too much. I just want to be with her. I wish I was. Laterz IVY ~WTF?~ - Saturday, Mar. 25, 2017 |
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