The last 45 min was the worst in my life. My legs gave out in the shower, so I sat on the edge of the tub. I slipped off the edge, and was lodged in the tub with both legs ywisted outwards. The pain was excrutiating. I watched my feet turn from red, to purple to blac. It took me about 20 min to slowly inch one leg towards the other. It felt like I was going to break my ankle.

Finally I got my legs straight out infront of me. But, I couldn't move them, after about 10 min of trying to get up, and realizing I couldn't, I shut the shower off, and fought to get out of the tub. I couldn't, so I kinda, crawled/fell out of the tub. Then spent about 5 min on the bathroom floor. I realized I wasn't going to get up, so I crawled/kinda dragged my legs into my bedroom, and couldn't even crawl onto my bed. I kinda rolled onto it, and laid there. Then I climbed from it to this chair, and am now documenting it.

I can no longer live alone.

I am really fucking scared.

My legs hurt so bad, and are so weak. It feels like I ripped tendons in my inner thighs. I can't fucking walk. The lights are on downstairs, my son is asleep, the rabbits aren't fed.

I can't deal with this. If I had to piss, I couldn't make it to the toilet right now.

If I am like this tomorrow, then I think I am going to see what 60 ativan will do to a human body

IVY

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