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~Random deep thoughts~ Monday, Jul. 07, 2003 - 1:17 AM You never realise how amazing having a woman is, until they are gone. It is like a sickness, a disease. It's all you can think of, all you breathe, all you know. You want, lust, and crave them with all that you are. Your mind gropes for more of the memories you have hidden away for a rainy day. Your body lusts for the feel. All your senses tingle at the thought. I'm pretty mellow tonight. Pretty quiet. I guess I am somewhat deep in thought. I just.......I found something tonight that tore me apart. Every shred of dignity I had was blown away in one moment. It has all been replaced by self disgust, self hate, and feelings of stupidity. Why? Why do I force myself to understand? Why do I force myself to accept? Why do I even listen? I wish I had a car. If I did, I would be in the middle of nowhere right now, screaming into the darkness, and waiting for some sort of enlightenment. Why do I keep putting myself through this shit? Why do I even care. If I could, I would cut my heart out with a fucking spoon. I hate this feeling, and it is all I have left anymore. IVY ~WTF?~ - Saturday, Mar. 25, 2017 |
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