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sad 2001-03-14 - 04:41:31 I'm really sad today. I guess it finally came to that point. I can't distract myself anymore. She is gone, and I am feeling it bad. I emailed her dad tonight. I had to stop myself from begging him to get her here. Instead I just let him see a fraction of it. All I do anymore is cry, but I never let her see it. I wish she was here. She would hold me, and tell me everything was ok. But she isn't and everything isn't ok. Things just keep getting worse. I feel like I am sliding down an icy hill. I can't stop no matter what I do. It just keeps getting worse. I tell everyone that I am ok, and that things are great. Yet inside I am dying, and giving up on ever being happy again. Everytime I think about her, I get a shock of pain. I can't handle this anymore! I need her here! Why won't anyone help us? Why won't things hurry up? This has been the longest 10 days I have ever lived. It doesn't help that my ex has been stalking me. I can't get away from him, and it scares me. The only time it doesn't bother me, is when I am with her. She makes me feel safe. Now I don't even have that comfort. I can't live like this much longer....it is tearing me apart! IVY ~WTF?~ - Saturday, Mar. 25, 2017 |
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