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~I wish I was ignorant to it all~ Monday, Nov. 11, 2002 - 2:05 AM Well, I feel mentally crushed. I wish Jay was awake right now. I need to talk. Not necessarily about anything. I just need to talk to someone. I just added 2 more memories yo the locked diary. The shit makes my skin crawl. It all hurts to think about. I wish I could share it with someone, but Jay and the kids are being kept from it all. Toots is showing interest in seeing what I am writing about, as he feels he can handle it. I guess I just want someone else to hold them...kinda like passing the buck. I have offered to give entry to anyone who asks, and Jay oks. But I don'r expect anyone to ever want to see that shit. As I type it, I can barely believe that this beautiful person in my life, ever went through that shit. The kids are proof of it all, but I suppose I would rather not believe it really happened. When I do think about it happening, I wonder what kind of world it was, that I brought my son into. It truly scares the shit out of me. I need something to do. I need someone to talk to. I wish I wasn't sitting here in the dark alone, while my girl sleeps. I just wish that things were better right now. I want the pain of it all to stop. IVY ~WTF?~ - Saturday, Mar. 25, 2017 |
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