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~Again?~ Wednesday, Nov. 16, 2005 - 7:44 PM 3 days ago it all came rushing back to me, and I don't know why. I long for her touch. For her words of consoling. I keep seeing things she would like, and then when I am about to call her, realize she isn't here. I hear songs that tear me apart because they remind me of her. I's been 10 months! WHY??? WHY NOW??? I just want to heal. To move on. But when I lay in bed at night, I let my mind wander to what has been. To what could have been. It's killing me. I just can't take this anymore. I'm gonna snap again. I just know it. I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up. Or fall asleep and wake up a year and a half ago in her arms. I still miss her. I still want her. I'll never be able to have her again. She is my soulmate, and I am dying because I lost her. None of this is real. It can't be. She is as much a part of me, as I am a part of her. I still love her. I don't know what to do. IVY ~WTF?~ - Saturday, Mar. 25, 2017 |
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